As the weeks go on, it's becoming more apparent that M is on the road towards adoption. It's sad, but true. What a bummer! Imagine that you're a kid and everyone around you knows that you won't be going "home", but you have no idea. You think you're just hanging out, getting presents, going to the zoo, eating your vegetables, and saying "I love you" to strangers... but soon some new strangers will be returning the phrase.
Foster Mom and I twist and turn in our dual reclining lazyboys, nervously sipping on McDonald's Frappes (our secret after-kid-bedtime treat). Do we want this kid to live with us forever? If we let her go to another family, will we always wonder if we turned our back on a blessing from God? Will we get any say in who she goes to live with? What if her adoptive parents aren't as cool as we are?! JK.If we keep her, will things get better or worse? How will she react to another child coming into the home if we decide to have a baby or get another foster kid? If we keep her, will we miss out on an even better kid that God has in the works for our house?
So selfish, I know!! I feel horrible, but I actually feel something as a man, so give me a break. M is so cute, so happy despite her circumstances, so talkative, so sing-y... how could we not keep her? Just like that.
When we started this whole thing we really thought that her mom would get a reality check, get it together, and be awesome so she could bring her family back together. That may still happen, but the odds don't help.
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